Insight

smile an the whole world smiles with you.. Bitch and you rule alone!

Summer Camping

It's summer camp time and the weather is fogggy and rainy and hot and muggy and JUST RIGHT for summer camp season!

As I lay Dying

I got the chance to go with my Daddy Long Legs like old Chingu Yeong Kim to visit his fathers burial mound. What an interesting trip. Started at about 11:30 with a trip to Punggi to pick up some famous rice cakes (very expensive) that his father liked. Then we visited his childhod friends family and had a huge 20 piece side dish lunch. Theb we went next door to visit more inlaws.. more food fun anf fellowship. The last house we ate at was a 80 ajumma who was recollecting the first time she saw a black person.. The korean war... She said she was so scared that she ran! He friend who is younger only remembers that " the black people were the ones to give me chocolate- the white people would not"... We then climbed a windy hilly mountain that rounded into a clearing with a noticable mound carve in to the acove of the mountain. He displayed the rice cakes, bowed twice, and hesitated a moment in reflection. We left and went to Seosu suwon to have patpinsu! The we went back to good ole Yeongju to visit a traditional tea shop and have green tea..

empty

i feel like my timein Korea is up... why am i still here? When did this become the norm?

Long time , No See!

When I first started this blog in April ish 2008 I thought i'd be on an adventure for 1 year. It was fun exciting and interesting and hard and painful and a one of a kind experience. I decided to stay a 2nd year. It feels like this is my norm now! I really need to keep it moving but it really feels comfy to just stay in this opne lil town and just be..... lots of things have happened good and bad... but it seems just like blimps on the made for tv movie screen that is my life.

I'm still utterly single. CourtB is still my Best Chingu. I met some cool people but and i've made some enemies. i've been depressed outta my drome and I've been happier than I've ever been. And I have a secret!

Happy V-Day to me!

I'm spending this Vday alone! But I love my Valentine, B!

calling all ground hogs

Winters end cant come soon enough

Happy New Yeat Baabbbbyyy!!

So 2010 rolled in like a 18 wheeler and I had to throw my ass into overdrive to keep up. I've been working and partying nonstop. I set a few goals for this bright and shiny new year.. some similar to the years before and some a lil different: Lose weight, but gain more independence. Exercise my body , but also find ways to exercise my mind. DO 5 things I've NEVER done before. I have no idea what they will be.. maybe one will be actually complete a resolution LOL. I miss my friends so much it hurts.. but everything is starting to hurt a lil less these days. I think I'm growning up?

there and back

over the xmas holidays i got the chance to go home. After one week..i was ready to ome back to korea.

Michael Jackson- You are not alone

To all the Die-Hard- No-Limit Michael Jackson fans out there..

SO I just finished watching the newly released movie ‘This is it” and I felt like I had to try and do SOMETHING to connect with people who can understand what I’m going through right now. …because I'm feeling really crazy.

I’ve been completely smitten with Michael since I was too young to remember. I’ve enjoyed every performance, song, and dance he’s done many times over. I like to sing and dance to his music while I’m.... well just about anywhere. He’s without a doubt a very special and important part of my life. Some of my friends and family don’t understand my passionate obsession with the King of Pop… They think ‘ sure he’s got cool moves and great songs but we don’t even really care for the guy’ It’s not like that for me.. I think about him at least once everyday for what has now been my life. I know the songs inside and out and the move me beyond words, to tears, to deeper understanding of myself and other in the world, to greater heights than I’ve ever known.

I know, from the screaming fans I’ve seen passing out on screen, or imitating his dance moves to a on youtube, or devoting lives to looking more like him….., that I’m not the only one. But I still seem to be the only one around feeling a lil’ lost and hopeless. Y'know I find myself wishing to be around people that were ok with a conversation saturated with notes on Michael, or stories about how music changed my life, or even no conversation at all.. just listening to the music together and feeling connected to something great.

Don’t think that I’m a MJ Psycho.. that’s simply not the case.. I just miss so terribly the best thing that never happened to me.